Graduating from Nogizaka46, and sadly retiring from show business as well — on her 24th birthday, and on the group’s 5th birthday live. For a popular idol to just disappear after graduating is incredible. But it feels just like Nanamin.
With her financial situation now fine, when her best friend in the group has already graduated, and her mother even telling her to “take it easy” — why continue this job that has always taken a toll on her weak body? Even without knowing the actual reason, it’s still a logical choice viewed from outside.
She decided that she wanted to do something else, away from the public eye. We may not see her anymore after this, her calculating and private but ultimately honest self. But the moments she has given will be a reminder that there was a time when such a person was around. Those moments will be remembered, as she herself wished.
Why did they have to release her graduation song’s MV just days before her graduation? The song was already available since November! T_T
Never forget, when she cried hard when they were pranked about Bananaman’s MC duties for their weekly show coming to an end. Nanamin, who almost never gets emotional on film, but can’t help it when it’s about people she loves. “Bananaman-san suki nan da mon!”
Never forget, the Nanamin who was almost too honest in answering kids’ questions when she wasn’t being weird. While she probably exaggerated her tone for comedic effect, it was the same honest Nanamin who doesn’t just throw around words lightly. Even the members get really happy when she praises them, because she only does so when she truly means it.
Never forget, when Maimai “confessed” to her on the 2014 Nogizaka Valentine episodes but her prepared gift wasn’t for Maimai because she felt that it’d be too embarassing to give one to Maimai for the event — the Nanamin who regretted that and went all out with her present for Maimai in the following year’s Nogizaka Valentine.
When they were still a new (but heavily promoted) group, she said that the power of media is scary after hearing that their live sold out. I think having that reaction in that moment shows an awareness that’s really admirable for me. Like when she told the ponkotsu Captain Reika that even if she was disappointed, she laughed when she wasn’t called in the temporary senbatsu during the time when their 1st single senbatsu hadn’t been decided yet. It was because she thought about how the cameras will be focusing on them to get their reactions, to use their pain and sadness for business. She knew precisely what was wanted of them at that moment, and what that meant. Maybe I admire it because self-awareness or really, just awareness in general, is something that I think is one of the most important things to have. But I feel like it’s often overlooked because it doesn’t directly relate to morality and justice.
There many more moments like the twirling actress and the Nanamin Beam. For those I actually forgot, other fans will surely remember them lol. Her solid but never overwhelming presence will be missed, and is actually already being missed since she has stopped appearing on their weekly show (except for the latest one/her last one) since her graduation announcement interview last November.
Finally, like Nanamin’s time in Nogizaka46 and show business, it is time to end this entry in which I tried and failed to be sentimental about a person I don’t actually know.
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It started with Nogizaka,
and you wanted it to end with Nogizaka.
Thank you, Nanamin!